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+# My Feelings
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+I came to this country for our relationship, to see where it goes. I did not necessarily come to become Swedish, take SFI, being a dog owner has been nice but not my goal. I am here for us but to do that I must be able to make sure that I am taking care of myself as well meaning taking breaks when I am burning out. Knowing when I am taking a bit more than I can chew, etc, etc...
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+To grow together, grow as a person. Not necessarily for fun because I already found fun in Canada.
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+- Even with all other social interactions gone I cannot seem to give my family the attention/support that they need.
+- Social interactions
+  - Connecting better
+  - Not able to find time to connect with people.
+  - Not finding time to talk about things properly
+  - Selective on what times we spend together
+- Increased isolation
+- Bad outlooks on life
+  - If I am getting my license I don’t want expectations to do anything else for the day.
+  - Pessimism.
+  - Not finding things exciting.
+  - Not a celebratory person, ie don't care about celebrating my birthday, there are plenty of days that I can enjoy just as much or more.
+  - Gift giving does not mean much to me.
+- Capacity
+  - Being able to spend time how I want.
+  - Lots of outlets I can enjoy but kitchen chores and work seem to be the only ones feasible
+  - Feeling the freedom to go to work cafes.
+  - To go to work cafes I need the time and availability, ie walking there and not being stressed coming back. Must also feel 'productive' being there?
+  - Not enough recovery time
+- Taking administrative action.
+  - Doing things vs thinking about things
+- 2025 was a difficult year in many ways for me.
+- Frictions upon leaving.
+  - take dog out immediately met with extra conditions before leaving
+  - Bring hat that I was okay with not bringing
+  - fixing loop for bottle
+  - jacket
+  - Find phone
+  - Initially wanted to leave together, now we are in the same situation that we were in the beginning
+  - Packing a backpack
+  - cable
+- Having hobbies eats your time
+- Bad outlooks - life is a chore
+- Lots of options to do things but blocked by responsibilities.
+  Can’t do things how/when I want to do it
+- Night Time
+  - Night time walks can ruin nighttime sleep feeling.
+  - All 'fun things' are during the day time leaving only the activity of coding at night.
+- Very different thinking
+  - I like quick decisions for small things
+  - Only do things that are high priority or that I am only capable of doing
+
+## Frictions
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+- Wanting to be able to just do simple things without friction.
+- Tiring changing paradigms
+- Asking specific time of when task will be done causing pressure and not the ask about the specific task
+- Emotionally draining each other.
+- Mismatch in what we care about.
+  - How we feel about holidays.
+  - How we feel about everyday tasks.
+  - Priorities seem wrong at times. Video gaming/television > Niko > chores
+- Thought friction
+  - Reasonable vs unreasonable requests?
+
+## Annoyances
+
+- Not meeting in the middle.
+  - I'll cook you clean?
+  - Expressing opinion/hungry/tired
+  - Being able to sit in feelings and be upset.
+- Not being able to just be myself
+  - Responding with more interest.
+  - Being happy when I am not.
+- Being in the way?
+  - Bothered by small things ie turning off lights. Feels like I can’t do anything
+  - Quiet periods - Too early, too late, in a meeting, don't want noise.
+  - Bubble respect
+  - Cannot ask too many questions in short period of time?
+- Cannot set boundaries
+  - Doing things if you can?? I did not want to move a step aside for Kristina walking Niko
+
+## Incapabilities
+
+- Being able to read the room and act accordingly.