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+## Energy
+
+- Safeguard energy at all costs.
+- Restore burnt out energy.
+- Recovery
+- Being productive killing you?
+
+## Consume
+
+- Disbalances
+- Givers vs takers.
+
+Creating to an extreme has the potential to become consumption.
+
+
+# Conditions
+
+- You must meet certain conditions to be able to perform at 100%+. You can be physically 100 but if you have no motivation behind it there is no point.
+- Physically Conditions
+  - Being well rested.
+  - Being helathy.
+  - Being in good climate conditions.
+- Mental Conditions
+  - Being present, having other thoughts distract you from being focused on the present task.
+- Emotionally Conditions - Some things that are impossible to focus on because of the lack of interest or enthusiasm.
+  - Being emotionally invested and having the willingness to perform action.
+- Environmental Conditions - Your physiological surrounding and environment has an effect on you and your working habits, focus, and output.
+
+  - Low friction environment.
+  - Not performing while under pressure or stress.
+
+- The truly disciplines ones are the ones who can push themselves to do something that they genuinely do not like doing and sustain it for long durations of time with focus and concentration. Does that even exist??
+- It is possible to feel like shit but still have strong output.
+
+# Binding Vows
+
+Imposing a condition onto yourself to better achieve a goal.
+
+- Relinquish:
+  - Relinquish the act of withholding inner thoughts to communicate thoughts, intent, and emotion.
+  - Relinquishing distactions/quick pleasures such as mobile Instagram/social media for more time back.
+
+# Adapt
+
+- There is always a lot of friction when trying to do something new ie cooking, woodwork, even working on new code that I am unfamiliar with.
+- Mahagoro's adapt or Kanoh Agito's Formless.

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+## Random Simp Note
+
+Good morning, hope you had an amazing night's rest. You deserve it. <33
+
+Tonight is another one of those nights that I want to leave a longish message to tell you how I'm feeling but always delete but not tonight because I'm pushing myself to send this! I'm not sure if it's just a phase but life at home for me has been very irritating recently. Feels like I have a lot of problems that are spiraling out of control so I'll start with my sentiment on home. All the calm places that I felt I made for myself at home don't feel that cozy anymore. I'm realizing how irritating co-operative living is. I feel like I have no safe places to retreat to asides from sleeping. I thought about going out more but I've lost a lot of interest in going out recently. My focus has gone to shit because I'm letting myself get distracted by everything going on around me and my space being in a constant state of chaos. Feeling very stuck and I know it's in my own hands to get out of it.
+
+On a positive note, thanks for being so cheery and upbeat whenever you can, that shit makes me giddy, thanks for being such a supportive queen! I want to feel better and hopefully be able to express the nearly the same amount of enthusiasm that you give me !!
+
+P.S. I find it hard expressing myself fully while on call with you because I'm in the vicinity of my family and consciously avoiding being judged. I hope to be able to break this habit more and talk to you more freely without concern.
+
+P.S.S. You making ducky is the best thing ever
+
+## Simp Letters
+
+Merry Christmas Kristina, I hope you had a good nights rest babe!!
+
+Would never have guessed that I'd find AmEriCan love in Italy, I'm so glad that our paths crossed. Still can't believe how kind you were when I got robbed in Rome, paying for my drink and actually hanging out with me for so long afterwards. Ngl I started crushing on you a bit after I got robbed and asked for a hug because I was so bummed about losing everything. You made me feel safe in your arms. I wish I gave you more kisses that night but I was nervous because of that story you told me about the guy who couldn't take a hint haha. I'm very much a overthinker too. I still remember being the stairwell of that Airbnb in Florence and thinking I wanted to see you more _blush_
+
+Sweden was so fun! I want to stay for a whole month next time (Charlie voice)!! Appreciate that you took the time off to host me in Sweden, it was very kind of you to consider something like that. I honestly can't wait to host you in Toronto!! Thanks to you I have very fond memories of being in Scandinavia for my first time, all the park naps, falling asleep on each other during movies, cooking together, exploring places, riding bikes, being flattened by you on that ride at Liseberg (doesn't get much better than that), and seeing a naked guy in Freetown Christiania to name a few. Realize we barely have photos together, let's take more pictures together next time to document our memories! I can't wait for next time we're together so that I can express my appreciation for you and give all the love and affection you deserve! <3
+
+I honestly wasn't sure about having an exclusive relationship when you brought it up but I'm glad that you did because I might have avoided that forever. I was scared to commit but I feel safe now that we're together, I apologize for being avoidant of it and disrespectful to you, you deserved much better than that! <3 Big thanks for being tolerant of all my red flags, slow internet, American behavior, mispronounciation of words, slow thinking, and always asking you to repeat what you said. <3
+
+I hope you're able to find more inspiration in 2023 to do whatever it is that you want to do. Whether it's crushing it at work or cleaning up your home, or creating more art. I love watching you work on things and seeing your attention to detail. I still remember you mentioning how much of a perfectionist you were to me on our first date and you're not wrong at all.
+
+Grateful for everything you brought into my life Kristina. <3 Thank you for swiping right on my lame ass, thank you for buying my drink after I got robbed and spending the rest of the night with me, thank you for entertaining the idea of hanging out in Florence and showing us how Swedes speedwalk, thank you for hosting me in Sweden, thank you for crushing me on that ride in Liseberg, thank you for introducing Steam games that test the limits of our relationship, thank you for culturing me on things that I am unfamiliar with which is a lot of things, thank you for being such a fun person to talk to (honestly all the interesting conversation that we have together has been such a blessing), thank you for consistantly roasting me, thank you for being honest and upfront about things (hard conversations don't feel so hard with you), thank for all the time that we've spent together it has been lovely to say the leas, above all thank you for being you <33
+
+Looking forward to what the future has in store for us!! >:o